19 MAY 2010 WEDNESDAY

这几天都在找工作...累累...累...
昨天去SETSCO面试...他们当场录取我了...开心开心...
5天的工作...office hour...

那天听朋友说去台湾学化妆...飞机票...什么全包...rm10,000...
有点贵噢...可是他们的化妆真的很美噢...很喜欢 =)

本来今天想跟Koren他们去charlet...可是打给他们却没接...
算了...反正不是很想去...就呆在家算了...
在家上网...可能还会跟Geok Shan出去一下...

今天辉off...本来想抓他陪伴我...呵呵...可是他看起来好累噢...
好吧...放他一天假...让他好好休息...
辉，好好休息噢 =D

14 MAY 2010 FRIDAY

Friday...
雨过天晴...彩虹出现噜... =)
原来幸福很简单...越简单的关心越令人感到安慰...

又要去见工了...
好懒惰哦...
要去化妆噜...
等等要找tiger吃午餐...
嘿嘿嘿

已经习惯了一个人的生活了...
一个人在家上网...
一个人吃饭...
一个人找工作...
一个人哭...
一个人找见工的路...
一个人逛街...
虽然习惯...
但是却讨厌一个人的感觉...


*be[lie]ve*

13 MAY 2010 THURSDAY

“期许”会让一个人难以呼吸~
当一方期许的比另一方高...另一方就会难以呼吸......眼泪也很难落下...是因为......太爱了..不懂要怎样去反驳了...我知道你要我改...你对我有要求...是因为你不想我一直都像温室里的小花......受保护...可是...一个人很难去改变一个人的生活方式...就算改变...也需要很长的时间吧?...我的脾气和生活方式已跟随我18年10个月13天了...你要我改变...也需要给我时间...难道不是吗?......你说我的妈妈偏帮我...我可以忍...你说我任性...说话没有分寸...我可以忍...你说我爱跟她比较...我也可以忍...可是你有想过吗?......我也知道那是不必要的思想啊...为什么我还要想那么多...那不是自讨苦吃吗?...我知道自己有时很无理取闹...可是毕竟我们在一起啦......你说的第一次的对不起-有效...第二次的对不起-有效...第三次的对不起-有效......那么...第四次的对不起.....第五次的对不起.....第六次的对不起... .... ......还是一样有效吗?...

好累~累得想放弃~
回头想想...我们在一起很久啦......每当我任性...你都会容忍...可是...今天...我真的很失望,你知道吗?...并不是我要跟男生暧昧...并不是我到处给别人我的号码......你知道我的心里只有你...我做的或许都错...可是我要的只是你的信任...你的注意和疼爱...难道你不知道吗?...难道真的很难吗?...我知道我说话有时很伤人...可是说的人心更痛啊...我这里跟你吵架,转个头,你跟另一个男性朋友跑掉...你叫我回家...你知道我会怎样想吗?...或许你永远都不会懂...因为我根本就不会对你做那些事情...我告诉你好了...感觉真的很怕人...失去,寂寞,伤心,想哭,容忍,宽容-不同的情绪出现了.........这样的感觉比死更可怕...我第一次感觉到被抛弃...我第一次感觉到我并不是你的女王...

我的苦恼~
为了你...我可以承受一切的痛...当别人拿一个话题当笑柄...我只会笑...不说话...可是心却在流血啊...该怎么止血呢?...你一句慰问的话......就是你一句慰问的话...我就可以把刚刚听到的...痛心的...都忘了...对啊...我很幸福...我没有试过穷...我不懂饿肚子的难过...可是我可以感受到啊...我是人...一个很普通的人...我懂得用心去感受...我真的不懂...流着眼泪的笑容...是什么?.........

我的幸福~
你会很坦诚的告诉我发生在你身上的东西...虽然不能参与...却能感受到你的快乐...当你难过,烦恼,我却永远只会再再再为你添加烦恼......很好笑吧...像我这样的女生还有男友噢?......我讨厌被人看不起...我更讨没自信的人...可是我偏偏就是被人看不起,没自信的人啊...我真的没有勇气再找你了...因为我在伤害自己...也在伤害你......

29/4/2010 THURSDAY

- 29/04/2010 -
下雨咯...哗啦哗啦......坐在窗边...看着雨滴一株一株的落下...听着雨滴声嘀嗒嘀嗒的响...
这是我想念辉的声音.........

我们又吵架了...吵架是因为在乎...我懂......可是不要用那么强烈的方法好不好......我会伤心的...

辉~你知道我很好强嗒~什么都要赢~如果不是你一直忍让我~我们都不懂会不会吵架吵到翻天覆地了呢？~

现在你在跟同事出去游玩~外面在下着雨呢~别被雨淋湿咯~你的病还没好~

我对你的祝福... *放在心里* Y(*o*)Y
你要健健康康噢~别在生病了~


许愿...... ()(,_,)
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/ / /
// / /
Whatever you go,i promise to follow...
Thats how much i love you...

27/4/2010 TUESDAY

忘了多久~忘了时间~
我遗忘了当初的悲伤~
从新生活~

admin真的真的不好当~
3个星期~就让我放弃了~就让我灰心了~
辞职了~
原以为这是一个不错的工作~可以陪伴我许久的工作~

如果有人问我~你的目标是什么？
我会回答说 ：我不知道~
我真的不知道~
当初的理想真的不能与现实相比~
现实总是令人慌张~害怕~
家人常说我~像个小孩子~长不大~令他们担心~

事实上呢~我没有长不大丫~
或许在他们心中~我永远是个小孩吧~

我在努力找工作噢~
加油加油~我不能这样放弃~不能这样就认输~

11/4/2010 SUNDAY

不知不觉
我换工作已有一个星期了~
工作不错~可是很累~
有时甚至呼吸不到~想喊救命~
我的大马号码0165139021被我顽皮的手乱按乱按~
结果锁卡了 T-T
没办法~只好买新的噜~

今天出去新山盖印~
13号就可以拿我的permit了~
真快哟~

今天我跟姐姐在新山的时候~
表姐线一封信息来~说她会搬走~
她存心与我为敌吗？
没关系~她要搬就搬~懒得理她~
一句话：我不会低头！别指望妈咪一声令下~我就向她道歉！错的不是我！

好啦~在这踏踏脚印就走了~拜拜~‘回忆’

30/3/2010 TUESDAY

你心痛，我会跟着眼睛红
只要他鼻酸，你也就跟着眼睛红；若是他心痛，你的胸口也会跟着紧揪
=这是只存在于情人间的心电感应=

我爱你，因为看见你哭泣的样子，我也会忍不住跟着掉眼泪。

就像看见连续剧里面的悲惨剧情，观众也会跟着掬一把辛酸泪一样。只是，为了别人的不幸而流泪，你不过是充分发挥了悲天悯人的精神。为了爱人的眼泪而落泪，你是真的能够感觉到他的伤心，真的能够品尝到他的苦涩。哪怕他不是在你面前哭，哪怕你根本不知道他到底是为了什么而哭，只要他鼻酸，你也就跟着眼睛红；若是他感到心痛，你的胸口也会跟着紧揪。

这不是普通的同情心泛滥，而是只存在于情人间的心电感应。

24/3/2010 WEDNESDAY

好累~除了工作~还是工作~
我换工作了~
admin clerk~
听起来称呼不错~却不晓得~自己能不能适应~

22/3/2010
FAREWELL---Issey Miyake的同事全都聚在一起~
好好的谈天~好好的吃一顿饭~
心情难免会有些难过~

好想家~
许久没回家走走了~

朋友~
一步一步的远离~
心中的箱子空了许多 T_T
有谁能感受到我此刻的心情呢？

表姐真的令我好烦恼~好烦恼~
那天~
妈咪叫我开口跟她说一声:"我去JB"......
我却用了很长的时间~
我真的不想跟她说话~
为什么要逼我~
最后被逼说了~
就跑出去了~
讨厌被逼的感觉 T_T

不是我错~我没有错~没有错~错的是她~
帮托~放生我~

14/3/2010 SUNDAY

很久没上来停岸噜~
呼噜呼噜~
最近工作很累~
我在8号丢了辞职信~
感觉整个人很轻松~
可是又不舍~怎么说都好~
同事陪伴我许久~

我在努力找工作啦~找一份更稳定的工作~
有足够的时间陪家人~休息~

铁金刚的我病啦~
鼻涕一直流~
呵呵~恶心~~~

妈咪下个星期就来啦~
可以看到她们~真开心 =）

有人教会我~就算生气~也要"适可而止''~
我要记牢牢~

切记...切记...

6/3/2010 SATURDAY

So g00d =)

Today is saturday...

I OFF

I decide to resign le...

because i really dont like this job...

Girl...I miss you...

HWEE...I miss you...

FAMILY...I miss you...

25/2/2010 THURSDAY

如果真的爱一个人~就该坦白告诉他~不要等他走了~才来后悔~
我现在很幸福~真的很幸福~因为有他~

昨天我竟然会做出那么疯狂的事情~
是因为我真的很喜欢他~
我真的不敢说那是爱~因为~
无论多爱对方~
只要他放弃~所有的爱灰飞烟灭~化为乌有~

我真的承受不了那样的打击~
为了他~我什么都肯放弃~
爱一个人爱到这样~真的很笨噢~

他问我~值得吗？
值得~一切都值得~只要有他~
他说我在为自己蒱后路~可是他永远不会知道~
那是我唯一可以欺骗自己的~

我知道他还会喜欢她~
不是一个短暂的时间~
我愿意去等~
等~

没了他~我将会结束目标~
到远方飘流~
让自己的心不再有住所~

24/2/2010 WEDNESDAY

怀念
想念
到底是什么
我可以不要吗

我一直默默在等待
在等待着你
或许就算到我失踪的那一天
也等不到
或许我下一秒就忘记一切
可是我知道心里最深处
一定有个你

我真的应该冷漠下去
假装无所谓
？？？
那样或许你会好过些吧

***********************
你知道你闪我的那一刻~我听见心碎的声音~是你拒绝的动作~我努力向前走~不要回头~不想让你看见我落泪的样子~因为真的好丑~你一直重复的说你喜欢她~就好像在告诉我~我该放弃~无论我做什么~你还是喜欢他~可是我就放不下你啊~你要我怎么办~没了你~我的天空都变成了忧郁的蓝色~我一次又一次的试着相信其他人~可是我做不到~现在的我竟然害怕~害怕真心~害怕被伤害~你说你不要伤害我~可是你说谎~就是在伤害我~你如果不爱我~那你为何又要做那一切一切~到底你想怎样~好想这样问你~可是又害怕~那不是我要的答案~

23/2/2010 TUESDAY

Yesterday no open bill...
Promotion moment no open bill...
T_T

Very sad!!!
And i hope to back malaysia after resign...
I dun want sadness...
Dun want cry...
I want my happy...

20022010 i receive roses...
Yes,thanks to the guy but i cant receive his love...
SORRY about that...
Really SORRY...

Because in my heart still got him...

All will be end if i back malaysia...
Today my mommy call me and ask me want to back there or not...
What is my final choose?

20/2/2010 SATURDAY

the bag i buy from far east

BVLGARI foc...lol...

my memory start from here

Yesterday our store start ISSEY MIYAKE promotion~
Very tired when need to take out the stock~
Heavy~~~

I Miss Him......

What ever i do...I also miss him...
I want to give up...
I dun want miss him...
Can i do it?
Can i forget it?

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Later need to clean my home and wash clothes...
Haha...I think also feel scary already...

18/2/2010 THURSDAY

回家的路变得很漫长~雨后的路~让我更难走~
200磅美女

IsSeY MiYaKe 新香水 wood edition & wood flower

最近的心好累~
昨晚~看着[200磅美女]~
突然哭了出来~
电话有miss call...是他！我的心情既期待又开心~
嘟嘟嘟~电话通了~
听到期盼已久的声音~
他说之前没找我是因为出远门~忘了拿电话~

心------在碎

你知道~我等你好久了吗？
昨晚我一直迷失在我们走过的地方~找不到回家的路~
笨笨的我竟然再次迷路~
真的好希望他会出现~

好多话想告诉他~可是只要面对着他~
想说的话都忘得一干二净~
我怎么了？

***请自己别再哭泣***

我会好好的
把爱他的心藏在心里
把爱他的话藏在心里
只希望
他不会讨厌我
我就满足

16/2/2010 TUESDAY

今天原先是早班的我变成了full~
有点傻眼的感觉~
因为我真的好累~好累~

在工作的途中睡了好几次~

回家...我慢走~

我发现自己害怕孤独~害怕自己一个~更害怕黑暗~

原来~回家的路是那么的长~
慢慢的回忆起与他的点点滴滴~
走过我们曾走过的路~
我一直欺骗自己说~*他会出现，就在下一个转角*
可是事实并不是如此~

转了很多的转角~把路程变得更遥远~

可是却见不到他的踪影~

你在哪里？不要玩了~好不好 ='(
为什么你要避开我呢？
我不懂~

原来并不是星星需要月亮的陪伴~
而是月亮需要星星的陪伴~
今天的月亮没出来~
因为她知道自己在星星的眼里只是天空中一个微小的物体~
少了月亮~星星并不会牵挂~不会悲伤~

你走远了~
也清楚告诉我该放手了~
你说的话~并没有实现~变成了谎言~
你~可以轻松的转身就走~
我~却要带着对你的思念走下去.........

我把爱你的心放进心里~

每天练习一遍~

8/2/2010 MON - 15/2/2010 MON

在我的"窝"~

我的宝贝"恬" =)

新年拿到的红包~虽然不多~却满满"心意"~

妈咪煮的鲍鱼~瓦卡卡~有口福 ^O^Y

8/2/2010 MON
放工姐夫和姐姐接我回家拿行李~
直接就去JB~
时间还早~我们去jusco走走~我买了一条裙~

9/2/2010 TUE
到家噜~
躺在自己的"窝"感觉自己好幸福~
妈咪要去巴刹买菜~
叫我顾恬恬~
她好可爱~

10/2/2010 WED
今天也一样~想找朋友~吃早餐~
吃完后就快速回家~
天气很热哦~
坏天气~

11/2/2010 THURS
打扫...打扫...打扫...
我发现自己喜欢看家人的笑脸~
尤其是自己喜欢的人~
好想他 T_T

12/2/2010 FRI
今天有家庭聚会~地点：婆婆家~
可是我们没去~因为~
妈咪煮了我们的饭~
有我喜欢的菜耶！

13/2/2010 SAT
表妹来我家谈天~
她常不满足家人给她的一切~
可是她超幸福的~
要什么有什么~
可是她却当家人是......一种不重要的人物~

顺便一提~妈咪派红包(压岁) ^u^

情人节要到了~
超紧张~
他......会不会也在想我~

14/2/2010 SUN
伤心的情人节~哭泣的情人节~
欢喜的年初一~

晚上与家人去"同发"观看烟花~
美!!!靓!!!

我期望的白马王子没来~
蝴蝶...蜜蜂...来了不少...
烦恼~
我的王子~
你会来救我吗？
还是你根本一点也不在乎~
我...快撑不住了...眼泪撑到12点终于落下~ T_T

15/2/2010 MON

下午载妈咪和弟弟去拜年~

与别人的车kiss~

幸好没事~

车没事~人没事~

可是我却吓到眼睛放大~

我必须记得抵达新加坡时~房间必须消毒~

因为有.........(secret)

家人到车站送我~

1星期结束了~

我的家乡之旅结束了~

在等巴士时~

恬恬做了一个很微小的动作~却让我感动落泪~

@平时的恬恬只要累了~想睡了~她就会哭泣~闹别扭~可是~这次她却没有~陪伴我等巴士~最后她忍不住"晕"了~眼睛闭上~再开~闭上~再开~嘻嘻~不忍心看到她如此~就叫姐姐先带她回家~妈咪说恬恬像我~开心~想你~@

S.H.我在想你~你知道吗？可是为什么你却不在乎~无论我做什么~结局还是一样~我还是被判死刑~她最好了~你曾说~我没自信~我已经把我所有的自信挖出来了~可是事实告诉我~我该退~阳光很灿烂~我却笑不出来~我忍着悲伤和无奈~就躲在房间不出来~无法阻挡时间在快转~我会把爱隐藏到谁也看不出来~

6/2/2010 SATURDAY

Everything was change...
I am waiting for what?
Can tell me?

LOVE come and go
FAMILY still stay
but family wont lie me?

I dunno~I dunno~I dunno
Cousin - I dunno how to face you
Silent is the choice that i can choose

有些人会一直刻在记忆里的，即使忘记了他的声音，忘记了他的笑容，忘记了他的脸，但是每当想起他时的那种感受，是永远都不会变的

5/2/2010 FRIDAY

Today my shopping centre start to extend hour...
Afternoon shift again...
(-_-")

Very tired this few days...
Feel like no energy to work...
Later still want to do housework and wash my clothes...
Everytime i think about my sales i also very SAD!!!
Maybe i really not suit to work as a sales girl...
I am gambatehhh looking for a job...
Hope can find it out soon (",)
bless me =D

Count down : 4 days
I can back sungai siput...hehehe...
A small town but got the people that i missing at there - FAMILY

I gotta wash my clothes and do housework already...
STOP here ^^

3/2/2010 WEDNESDAY

Today finally is my off day...
Very tired...On this 7 days 2 day full...
On 1/2/2010 need to do many things...Price increase,stock take(IM+TM),paper work,full shift...
Start work at 8.30am until 9.40pm...
Damn tired =(

Yesterday our division B go Seafood Paradise at Defu Lane having our dinner...
Hehe...Got 3 types of crab..Syok yerrr...
Still got many many...
Nice =)

I am still thinking about my future...
What i want to be?
Beautician?Make up artist?Office girl?
Dunno (-_-")

YES!!!I will back home soon...
Can see my princess...
My daddy and mummy...
2 brother...
Very happy...Decide bring brother hang out...HAha...
And meet my old friend...Wahaha...

Valentine day is drop on chinese new year...
This year valentine day very meaningful eh...

Hope everyone got a hapiness valentine days...

Another year already...

All the unhappy things need to take out...

Although i still miss my memory =(

29/1/2010 FRIDAY

Do you believe in this world got rainbow moon?

If got someone ask me like this...

I will answer : YES!I SAW IT!!!

Yesterday when i was on the way walking home...

I saw this scene at my eyes...

Opps...Around the moon got rainbow?

What is this...

I very happy and this is the first moon that i feel is belongs to me and my friend..

I call my friend see it...

He said.............................(secret)

Funny but happy...

Amazing night =)

28/1/2010 THURSDAY

Yesterday was my sister's husband birthday...

27 JAN 2010

The 1st one birthday people at my family...

The next one is my sister...

muahaha

We go BAKERZIN buy chocolate cake =)

nice...

Before make a wish,take some photo with the cake...

I teach him put the 0 on the eye there and other hand put 3...

nice lerrrr...

haha

1 day over...

What is waiting for me on the next day?

27/1/2010 WEDNESDAY

Yesterday i go Sakura International Buffet Restaurant having my dinner with my family...
Avenue : Omni Theatre

The food is not bad...but not fresh eh..hate it..

Inside got baked oysters and mussels..salmon..crayfish laksa..sambal prawn..sushi and sashimi..dessert..and others...

All i go to try and eat...until i cannot eat...muahaha...

happy =P

The table that their serve us is 33...

Our family really fated with 33...

My old home 33,singapore address 33,this table also 33...

We always meet with 33 =)

And a happy things is : I can go back malaysia for 7 days...

Start from 9 Feb until 15 Feb... ('',)Y

Yesterday since having my buffet...

I ask sister need to spend how many $$$ on chinese new year (give mom,dad,bro,sis...)

I shock after i know the total amount...

because that is my spend on chinese new year...

One month ++ salary gone...Oppss...

but is ok...$ gone can earn back...Family cannot...gone is cannot came back...

I will rush on 8 Feb because i will directly go jb after work...

To take my bus AT 11.15pm (^-^'')

My home...Wait me...I will coming back soon =D

26/1/2010 TUESDAY

Today is mine off day...
This few days,i over by sad mood...
My mom friend was passed away..
I like her friend so much..
She very care us..sayang us..always come my home help us when we was in trouble,sister wedding,my naughty,and more...
Now she was gone,my mother lost a friend..
I lost an aunty T_T
when i heard this news...I almost cry out at mine sales floor...

Working at casino is it good?
Is it can learn many things?

I very stress this few days..
Dunno why my cousin will cry...
She tell her friend that is me say out her secret..
OH MY GOD!!!
That things my mother also know..
Is she tell everyone and at the last all the people know...
NOT ME,ok>?
I decide just let it go...
She like to angry,scold and others..
Is her choose..!!!

22/1/2010 FRIDAY

hehe...fat jor =)
my working place change a new laptop...this is i put d background
RMK new nail colour...haha...nice

STEAMBOAT d small cake

food that we leave...

Feel like got many work since working...
Cannot finished it...
Yesterday after work...Go to eat steamboat with colleague...
WAH...so full o_O
Full until i walk also stomach pain...
haha =)

Hope that i can back sungai siput for 7 days...
Then i can fetch my brother go to tuition...playing with them and teach them homework...
Oppss...Almost forgot my little princess...LE TIAN...
i miss them all
miss my family

That day sister ask me wanna be boss or not..

wahhaa...but...i like here...how nerx X_x

All my friend also call me going back malaysia study...

I don't want eee...

Actually friend is what?
I am still thinking about this topic...
Why when she was on trouble,she no finding me,is go to find a guy?MAYBE she thought that i am useless or she is a girl that is only will be friend with SINGAPOREAN!!!hate it!!!

19/1/2010 TUESDAY

MALDIVES
a place that good for relaxing...snorkeling...diving(reef dive,drift dive,house reef dive,boat dive,cave dive,wreck dive) and other

I still remember...when i was child,i started love the sea...But...The funny things is..i dunno swim =(

I really hope that i can learn it until i know how to dive...
My first time snorkeling was on PULAU PERHENTIAN
that is very amazing...
can saw the turtle..nemo..big fish...
hehe...actually that is great "view"...
but that time is shock me...
i still remember that when arrived shark point...
i dun dare to go down...
all the people go down...
leave me alone on the boat T_T